Conflicted.

Okay.
So since I put up my last article on Tuesday, Joan Rivers has died.
I did have some serious misgivings about posting the article in the first place, knowing that her death might be imminent.
But since she was still with us, and I thought I had some valid things to say, I went ahead and wrote it, and published it.
I knew that I might have a very narrow window of time, because if she was already dead, I NEVER would have published it.
Whatever I thought of Melissa Rivers, it would have been too soon.
Now, she is a grieving daughter, who had to make the heart-rending decision about whether or not to keep her mother on life support.
Melissa Rivers is most-likely a very decent human being, with the same human failings that we all have.
This is exactly how I would describe myself.
So even though I took a major crap on her on Tuesday, let me take this opportunity to extend my sympathy to her at this time.
Maybe she deserved better than what I imposed upon her.
Maybe she didn't.
I don't know for sure.
But I've never been conflicted about anything I've written before, and this has stopped me in my tracks.
I don't know if I'm a better person for it, but if I am, I have Melissa to thank.
I don't regret a word of what I wrote.
How's that for conflicted?
Anyway, I wish her nothing but the best in the future.
And I'm very pleased that I was as genuinely complementary about her mother as I legitimately felt.
What I'd written on Tuesday was done with my knives sharpened, and in perhaps questionable taste.
Which describes the way Joan Rivers conducted herself on stage consistently.
So, except for the fact that I was attacking her own flesh-and-blood daughter, I think she might have been sympatico.
Well, probably not.


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